really tired of the bull...

let me just start out by saying that i never want to be like my parents. all i ever hear is make good decisions and blah blah blah but its kind of hard to make good decisions when you have your hand up my back like im a puppet. why do parents need to run their kids' lives. ok i understand people wanting the best for their kids and for them to not get pushed around, but considering i am the person who has always just gone with the flow and done everything that everyone wants me to do thats not exactly going to happen. i have been the obedient little robot my entire life...i dont think a year is going to reverse 20 years of conditioning. if i really have a problem with something i will stand up for myself but if its not something that i care about either way, of course i am not going to rock the boat if i dont have to. i hate being caught between a rock and a hard place...great...because i definitely need more things to stress about in my life right now...