well...life...its just a game of up and down

if nothing else, the one thing i have learned over the past few months is that life is a game of up and down. positions of power come and go, moods change, and relationships form and fall apart. when you start school, you are the young one, the freshman, the little guy...then you grow up to be the top dog, the senior, the big man on campus. same with a job...if you stick with it long enough you begin by being the little guy and someday hopefully become the boss. moods, some days you feel like you are on top of the world, and the next you can feel like there is nothing that can make you less miserable. and finally relationships, you can be so close to someone one minute, and the next you feel as though you barely know them. these are just the facts of life, and no matter how much we may want to, there is really no way to change that. in the past few months i have experienced the good and bad of a lot of things, but overall i would say that i have ended up on top. yea there are things in my life that i dont like and would change in a heartbeat if i could, but everything happens for a reason and i will always take the good with the bad. the one thing i dont like is the fact that for the next month or so i will have practically NO social life...but the upside is that i will hopefully make enough that i will not have to work for the rest of the year elsewhere. also, i really dont want to go on vacation for almost 2 weeks...i know that from afar that sounds extremely ungreatful, but my thing is i would be perfectly happy staying at home enjoying a relaxing end of my summer with the people that i love and all of my friends. it feels like i have already let a month of summer go by doing practically nothing and i am fine with that, i just wish i had more time to just spend hanging out enjoying life instead of worrying about every little detail. but i just look at it this way, in a few short years i will be done with school and finally start a career and a family. i am looking forward to the day when my life is finally settled into a routine and when i am finally doing things on my own (or with the help of hopefully a husband haha) but more than anything i am looking forward to the day when i dont have to explain myslef to everyone and their mom about the decisions i make. then the only one i have to explain myslef to will be my significant other...these are the things that i am excited for (but that i am not rushing) because after all, good things come to those who wait :) so hopefully this didnt seem emo, because that is not how i meant it to be. if anything i want it to be a message that chances are you feel the same way sometimes and i just wanted to say how i was feeling so that hopefully you dont feel alone on your train of thought (: