just wondering...

why is it that the more you bend over backwards to make people the thinner they want to stretch you. there is so much to do, but so little time and i feel like there is never enough time in the day tou get everything done...granted there are so many more people that have more going on than i do, but honestly i dont know how they do it. sometimes it just seems like no matter what i do i can never make everyone happy. i dont know. some days i look at my life and think "how in the world did i get so lucky for every element of my life to go hand-in-hand?" and other times i just want to ask "why?" but i know all of this crap will be worth it once i finally figure out what i want to do with my life and establish myself as a professional. im practically already counting down the days until im finally out of school for good and my only concern is my family and friends and my career. to me it just seems like that day cant come soon enough. sometimes its overwhelming, but any time i feel too stressed i take a second to stop and think about what my future WILL be like if i just stick with it and get done...and its worth it. so for now i guess ill just keep doing what im doing, being stretched too thin, bending over backwards to please everyone even though sometimes i dont succeed in making anyone completely happy, and just skip forward to when i know its gonna be great. until next time, remember...no matter what, if you stick to what you need to do you will make it through :)

life as i know it...

there are so many things that are unsure. like what i want to do with my life...or what i want to be when i grow up. i have absolutely no idea what i want out of life. all i know is that i want to become successful at whatever it is i decide to do, and to have a great family of my own. thats prettymuch the only thing that i am sure about at this point. school has just become another one of those things that im only doing because i know its what i need to/should do...not that i enjoy it or even slightly like it because the truth is that i HATE it! obviously education is one of the most valuable things a person can have, and not everyone has the opportunity to have a great education; but, i still would rather just skip this stage in my life and just head straight for the success/working part. needless to say, uncertainty is basically the recurring theme for my life lately and i cant wait til its finally over. i would love to just wake up one day and find myself sleeping beside the man of my dreams (as my husband)...waking up in a room right down the hall from my beautiful children, get ready for the day and go to my dream job...basically just skip all of this uncertainty. i know, not realistic, but one could wish right!? also, knowing where i stand would be great too...just sayin! thats all for now, i just had to get it off my chest :)