trust

why is trust the easiest thing to decide you want but the hardest thing to give someone else? i would be absolutely lying if i were to say that i trust certain people with all my heart the way i should. the problem is that no matter how much i know deep down that i should trust certain people it comes so difficult for me because of my background. i have grown up around people who are so much less than truthful; they lie, cheat and steal to get what they want and somehow that has left me jaded now that the time has come to put my trust into something so important. don't get me wrong, there are people that i trust absolutely, but others that i should trust and want to trust come so hard and i hate it! i hate that they feel like i dont trust them like i should and that i dont give them enough credit for doing the right thing. i know how it feels to have someone not trust you when all you do is strive to be the person they want you to be and yet i still find myself doing that same thing. over the past few months a lot of what i have gotten used to (not good things of course) has come to my attention and i am trying more and more every day to get rid of those things that keep me from letting all my walls down and clearly i need to still try harder, but eventually itll happen and everything will fall into place just like i have always wanted and imagined. that is my new resolution...to give people the trust they diserve no matter what i may feel deep down because i refuse to let those who caused me to not trust ruin a great thing for me because know i deserve that happiness!

Life lessons

So, I have abandoned the idea of coming up with a new faq to find the true answer to because, well, none of them actually have a real answer so there goes that idea.

As for me, I have learned a lot of lessons this summer, and considering its only about half over I wonder what the rest of the season is going to bring. Among the lessons I have learned are:
1. Unless something you hear or read materializes there is no reason to make a big deal of it. It will only cause you more stress than it's worth and 9 times out of 10 it is something harmless that has just been misinterpreted or just said without truth or consideration.
2. How to keep my mouth shut (for the most part anyway...still working on it) in situations where nothing should be said. So many arguments start between two people because one or the other says something that shouldnt have been said in the first place. Letting something go that I feel strongly about is hard for me to do, but when it is between bringing up a sore topic/asking a stupid question or being happy around someone I choose the latter every time...or at least im getting there.
3. There is no age on love. If you find the person that makes you happy in life, the person who is always there for you when you need them and who makes you feel like you are the only person in the world that is capable of completing them, why keep looking. Society has somehow gotten to the idea that older people are the only ones who should get married or fall in love, but when you really think about it that is terrible advice. When you wait so long to get married to someone it sends the message that you are not serious about them and are only marrying them out of logical order of life events. Or, people who wait to get married until they have everything figured out and have their life in order; things change when you get married whether it is for the better or worse so waiting and making a calculated decision on when to get married (then latting it crumble because it didnt go according to plan) is just as bad, if not worse, than getting married/falling in love young. Being someones "other half" should be a privilage not an imposition or calculated action. There is no better feeling than knowing you found someone who makes you happier than anyone else ever could. Im not saying that everything is going to constantly be great; in the words of Maroon 5 "it's not always rainbows and butterflies, it's compromise that moves us along" but taking the good with the bad and appreciating the other person is priceless no matter what age you are. Whether you are 19 or 90 knowing that someone chose you over the billions of other potential partners is a wonderful feeling.
4. A great friend is hard to come by, but when you find one you better hold onto them. My best friend and I have known each other since 5th grade and have been besties ever since. We may not get to talk to each other as much as we would like, but we don't have to talk every day to know that we're cool (after all, we're adults and work eats up a lot of time for both of us...no to mention we live about an hour apart:/) But I know that I can always lean on her for advice and she knows that she can always come to me when she needs advice or just someone to listen. I am glad that she has found someone who makes her so happy because she deserves it more than anyone else I know. She prettymuch equals about 20 regular friends :) Love you miss girl!
5. And finally, (there are many more but this post is already long enough), no one can live your life for you or decide how you should do things. If something makes you happy then do it, don't just go down one path because you are trying to make someone else happy. It doesn't matter how happy you make others if you are miserable on the inside. Do what makes you happy and don't apologize for it. If someone has a problem with it they should just get over it. They don't have to walk in your shoes so you shouldn't have to follow in their rules to be successful and happy every day of your life.

These life lessons are pretty common knowledge, but until you have had an experience with them first-hand it is a little harder to take someone's word for it. Until next time, life lessons are everywhere, you just have to take the time to realize when one is being presented to you :)

why dont i learn?

why have i still not learned how to just keep my mouth shut? honestly its what gets me into the most trouble. I ask (i guess unnecessary) questions at the wrong time and it just makes things go from good to bad...on top of that i try to explain stuff i do or say/ask and it just makkes things go from bad to worse. ugh, i guess i'll learn soon enough...or at least i better, after all it is what causes most of my problems. im not saying that i have a big mouth when it comes to other peoples business or even my own because i know how to keep a friends business a secret if it is intrusted to me, but for myself i think i might be better off missing that part of my anatomy sometimes...would definitely make my life a lot easier is all i'm saying. whoever said curiousity killed the cat was right, maybe not to that degree but dang near. i guess i'll learn...eventually haha

kelley

I finally got my letter of acceptance to the Kelley School of Business, but it's almost bitter-sweet. Don't get me wrong, I am ecstatic to finally be in; however, at the same time that single piece of paper has practically solidified my future. The past two years this is the goal I have been working toward and now that I have it I find myself thinking there's no backing out now...business it is. Since I was really young all I wanted to do was have a high up position in a company that pays really well and that lead me down the path of getting a business degree. I guess all of this pondering is a product of my overwhelming amount of free time at my store which has brought me to a realization that I'm not getting any younger. This is my time to really buckle down and to shine! Now is the time to kick butt at school so I can be as successful as I had always imagined, and I want it more than anything. I always hear these tales of woe about how "everyone changes their major at least once in college" which I now know is not true...those who change their major multiple times clearly are not paying for their own education! haha :) I almost always approach something as "I better finish what I have started" and so far it's worked out in my favor (knock on wood). The overwhelming reality that I am now an adult and dont have anyone but myself to make decisions for me takes some getting used to, but I know that I will overcome whatever ales me and be a better person for it thanks to the support of my wonderful friends :) as for now...I guess I'm Kelley bound! haha

answers

I have finally done a little research on my first mystery and discovered that it is total hooey. While on my hunt to discover the real reason people say not to wear white after labor day I practically found no real answer to how this "rule" (if you really want to call it that) got started. However, I will share my findings anyway...people say that because white is mostly a summer color and thus many manufacturers only make white clothing in fabric types that are less suitable for colder weather (thus the Labor Day rule). As for myself, I will continue to employ white into my wardrobe at any given opportunity because I like the way I look in it. Personally I don't understand where the saying came from anyway or why someone would try to put such a restriction on someone's style in an attempt to stifle their creativity...I say wear what makes you happy, no matter what silly age long saying says otherwise (with the exception of see-thru leggings with a baby tee...thats just wildly unacceptable!...not to mention an assult on the eyes in most cases) I guess I'm done with my rant for now, now to figure out what I am going to tackle next (hopefully something with a little more concrete answer...)

new things

So much has happened since the last time I had the opportunity to get on here and write. It's like life is moving in fast forward and there's nothing I can do about it. I have been married for almost a month now and married life is...well...prettymuch like I expected it to be. We have both been extremely busy since school ended, but whereas most people would be upset about the fact that they dont get to see their spouse enough because it is so hectic (not that I don't think that way every once in a while) I try to look more on the bright side and to make every second that we do get to spend together count. We have moved into our own place and are currently in the process of fixing it up. My hope is that people who walk in once its finished (people who saw it in progress that is) will say WOW! It is a lot of work but it will look fantastic when it is done and it will be a place all of our own which is already more than worth it...considering we got it for a steal in the first place. I started my annual fireworks store yesterday and let me just say I was not ready for it to be here this soon, but I guess its something to do (not to mention great money) the hours just seem to get longer and longer every year. Time always seems to slow down for me in this 6 weeks but unfortunately life doesnt stop just because it feels that way to me right now, there are still bills to be paid and adult decisions to make (by trial and error of course :)) It's funny to look back at my life now and think about how I almost always shyd away from new things and now I just go with the flow and try new things whenever someone can convince me I should, which is kind of freeing. Overall though life is pretty good for me. I have a husband who loves me, a good paying job, and the best friend a girl can ask for [who has inspired me by the way to write about something somewhat productive in my blog...so for the next few weeks while I'm stuck at my store I will be taking on some common mysteries; for instance, why people dont wear white after labor day (and of course some more hard hitting topics but that's where I will start)]

perspective

I am so tired of being one of the very few who see things from my perspective...lets just say if everyone could see things the way I see them (or just see the things i see period for that matter) my life would be 1000 times simpler. In my corner I have a select few people/friends that I have always come to for advice and know will tell me the truth no matter how much it hurts (which I respect them for) because they are just those kind of great people; on the other hand, theres everyone else, everyone chomping at the bit to tell me what a colossal mistake I am making and how stupid everything I have done recently is. For those people I would love to send them a message...I am a smart, well-rounded, and rational young woman who knows whats best for herself. Moreover, I am more than capable of making the decisions that will effect the rest of my life (and being the overanalytical person that I am if it weren't right for me there is no doubt in my mind that I would have done something about it by now). From now on I am done with what everyone else thinks because in the end it is me who has to live my life and no one else. So, if they want to judge me and give me unwarranted anvice they can go ahead, but that certainly doesn't mean that I have to sit there and listen to it. The only thing getting me through right now is the select few who see what I see or where I am coming from and realize that we are in the vast minority of the sane/rational ones. In less than a month my life will be changed for ever and I am more than excited and ready to let the chips fall where they may. Thats all for now...but remember, you are the only one who can truly see things from your perspective so if you are true to yourself you will be better off in the end for it...